So here I am again.  It’s been well, over 100 days since I posted on this site.   I am going to try to get into the habit of doing this on a regular basis.

Back in 2001, when I started blogging, it wasn’t called that, I had a diaryland diary.  It was a small amount of people who did the “blogging” and we all supported each other, it was quite an online community.  Some of the people who I shared with I actually met in person.  I miss those days, but who would have known back then that “blogging” would blow up like it did.  Now, everyone has a blog and everyone has a myspace, or twitter.  Is it weird that I feel like celebrities have NO RIGHT to even be on twitter?  It’s for us “normal” folk.  Since when do we need to be reminded that they have nothing to do but sit back and watch the money roll in while we have to raise our families and work our asses off?

cynical, party of one, your table is ready.

My photography business is going well.  It seems that my business has hit a wall.  I am booked up to November, and then have one wedding in December, but I haven’t scheduled anything for next spring yet.  I don’t know if that is abnormal or not, as this is really my “first” full season as I was only doing partial seasons before and would take the weddings here and there.  I guess time will tell.  I really should be getting out and marketing myself to the area bridal boutiques and to caterers and the like.  I have a wedding this weekend and next weekend, then I have one weekend off and then more weddings through June and July.  All of August and September are booked solid… and with softball practices for my daughter and coaching her team, it seems as though summer may fly right on by me without a second glance.  I just hope that I stop long enough to breathe and enjoy the nice weather and maybe get a nice golden brown.

Today I applied to be a trial person for the new palm pre.  I hope that they chose me to try the palm.  Lord knows I hate my crackberry.  Mostly because it just SUCKS.  I’ve used palm before and loved the interface and software, and I would KILL for an iphone, but I’m not shelling out that kind of money just so I can say I have an iphone.  I already have a 17″ g4 powerbook that is a paperweight right now.  I don’t need anymore.

Speaking of that 17″ paperweight… I sent it in to and when I sent it in, it was working, I chose not to have them repair the LCD screen, which they originally said was the bad mother board, and then said they “can’t” diagnose apples because they are harder to diagnose.  When I received it back, it was DOA.  It will NOT start up, and they are refusing to do anything about it.  Claiming even, that they did not take apart the computer to reach the LCD, but they HAD TO because they tested the inverter board & cable and to test the LCD on an apple G4, you must disassemble the computer.

I’ll keep you informed.


4 Years Ago 4 Years ago, when I sat up and watched Bush get re-elected, I was happy, hell, delighted even. I had voted for him four years ago, and also eight years ago when he ran against Gore, as my first ever presidential election as a voter. Four years later, yesterday, I was ashamed to say I voted for him.

Last night, we made history. We elected an African American president. I didn’t vote for him because of the color of his skin, I voted for him because I think that he can do a better job at cleaning up the monkey mess that the other person I helped put in the white house made. I think that John McCain could have done a decent job, well, at least better than Bush, maybe a little. And if he had won, I would be hopeful to see that he would make the changes he said he was going to make. I have never sat back and called people who are voting for McCain stupid, or retarded, or idiots. People I love voted for McCain, and because we live in a society where we can make up our OWN damn minds, and vote for who we want to vote for, I embrace the fact that everyone is allowed to have their own opinions about who would run this country better. And regardless of who my friends voted for, I still love them. I might not have liked some of the generalizations that I heard, the ignorant information being tossed around, some of the names I was called and stereotypes about democrats that were thrown on me simply because of who I was voting for, but I am proud that I voted for Obama the “socialist” “communist”. I am a registered republican, but no more. I am registering as an independent. One of the really big reasons I didn’t vote republican this year was because when I went to Washington, none of the republican congress or senate would meet with me. Their aides wouldn’t even meet with me, but ALL of the democratic ones did, even Senator Lugar from Indiana, where I am not even a constinuent. The other was that I felt like McCain put a woman on the ticket, to gain women votes, and I think (my opinion, like it or leave it) that she was grossly unqualified to run as vp and he could have chosen a better running mate and could have won the White House, and my vote if he had done so.

The bottom line is that we needed something different. Obama (not the muslim, not the terrorist, not the radical) is that difference, and I am hopeful that he will be able to pull this country out of it’s recession. I hope that all voters, republican, democratic, independent, green, etc, can come together and do what we have to do to rebuild our country.

Today, I am excited, anxious and hopeful for the country. Let’s just hope he will try to do what he says he will do WHEN he gets into office 01/20/09.

Can I just comment on the level of intelligence and wittiness that it takes for someone to change “Obama” to “Osama”!  I mean, WOW!  Did you really come up with that all by yourself?  It takes a really intelligent person to change one letter in a man’s name to make it the name of a terrorist.  Who, by the way, we financed and enabled to be who he is and to do the things he did.  Oh.  And PS.  Obama isn’t anything like Osama… contrary to Republican spin, he is NOT a Muslim, and even if he were… here’s a shocker, are you ready?  Sitting down?  Newsflash: ALL Muslims are NOT terrorists.  That’s like saying all Republicans are idiots because Bush is an idiot.  See?  Not fair.

To those who have said such, as my neighbor who I thought was intelligent, but instead is ignorant and wears a Obama Osama bumpersticker… Way to be super smart!  Here’s your gold star.

Ugh.  Be intelligent, not ignorant, regardless of who you are voting for… it’s really not that hard.

you should be so concerned.

i really am getting to the point where i don’t even




and in unrelated news…

where is my fucking cheesecake?

“A lot of Americans are concerned about our economy,” Bush said. “I can understand why. Gasoline prices are high, energy prices are high. I do remind them that we have put a stimulus package forward that is expected to help boost the economy. And of course, we’ll be monitoring the situation.”

God.  What a F U C K I N G idiot.

“we’ll be monitoring the situation” is code for, I don’t give a flying fuck. and ps.  the stimulus isn’t going to “boost” the economy.  If anyone can afford to spend their stimulus on “crap”, they don’t need it!

Accomplished today:

*Clean House… (okay, well, kitchen, desk, living room and dining room… the bathroom and bedroom shall wait until marrow!)

*Saw Taira, Jeff & Logan (they came over!!!)

*Worked this morning.

Saw today:

Connor was in bed for his nap, I kept checking on him, everything was fine, then about twenty minutes after I had last checked on him, I go into his room, and he’s got blood every where!  All over his face, up his nose, in his hair, on his hands, on his shirt, it has coagulated on his sheets… so much blood!  Of course, I started crying, thinking if he had a nose bleed, it’s not normal for babies to have bleeding nostrils!!!  And then he gets in the bath, and I see, it’s a torn top frenulum, and it is just bleeding and bleeding and bleeding.  Tonight I did a search to see if this is common, and it is!  I found an awesome blog here and her son did this to himself awhile ago.  Then I see that this type of injury is “usually” indicative of child abuse!!!  (If spoiling my son is child abuse, then I’m guilty, I sure as hell have never ever ever smacked him in the mouth!)  I’m assuming since he has started pulling himself up and all these fun things, that he must have fallen with something in his mouth or onto something.

Scared me to death!!!!

In Newsweek, they had a story about how openly gay Larry was killed by straight “homophobic” Brandon. The story was very well written, and to be honest, was very good about talking about both sides of the coin in relation to the issues at hand. (I.E. The downplaying of how Larry harrassed Brandon in school and the manner in which he harrassed him) and the truth in regards to how Brandon reacted to Larry and how Larry liked to “push” the envelope. In my opinion, this is not a “black and white” issue.

The gay community is turning it into a gay issue, when in fact, it should not be one. I love all of my gay friends, and I am in no way homophobic (at one time, thought I was bi!), but this issue is more than a straight kid killing a gay kid. I think of Columbine and all the other issues where bullying was a factor…

If Larry had been popular and had been terrorizing Brandon, what would the story be then?

How can we scream, don’t treat the gay society differently just because they are different, but then handle a story about a “gay” child and his murder and make the point that he was gay the prominent story line?

There are children every day who aren’t gay, or who are, really, it doesn’t matter what their sexuality is. Kids are killing kids, and it needs to stop.